Friday, March 6, 2009
7:57 PM
I'm almost done w Season 2 of The L Word.
Gosh! Baby cried. =(
Oh wells,
Anyways, spent da day at hme.
Been thinking & dwelling...
... .. . about a Few things.
Several things actually... .. .
=/
I think i've been Cheating Myself all this months.
Do I really mean it when I say that?
What is up with me?
Have I gone through something?
Have I learnt something from Everything that has happened in my life?
Have I changed?
Matured?
Become Wiser?
What is really up with me?
Maybe it's just time for me to come out?
Break out of my shell maybe?
Stop dwelling within.
Maybe I've to start something New, something Fresh
All over again...
... from Scratch... ?
Goshh!
Is something really missing?
Why does she always have to make soo much sense?
She has been such an awesome Friend in my life. =)
8yrs now.
Though she hasn't changed in anw (literally)
She makes perfect sense.
My only regret was not telling...
... not telling her the whole truth about me.
The other part of me that existed once.
It could be existing still...
... but i'm not sure if i'm ready to tell her even now.
Maybe because she sticks to her customs...
.. holding on tightly to them?
Maybe the Fear of her not Accepting me for who I am...
... like how I was ditched in the time of need, when i needed a shoulder to cry on, to spill out my pain and agony...
... only to be shunt away by a disgusted friend, who went about bitching about me.
Afraid to be hurt again?
Maybe.
Arggh, life doesn't seem to be going well right now.
I want Love.
I Need to be Loved... yet again
To know there's someone I can always turn to
To share my pain
To cuddle me during a Stormy night
To kiss me softly and say Good Night.
To text me randomly during the Day " I Miss You"
To look me in the Eyes and say I Love You a thousand of times and to never get sick of it.
=] Honestly I miss being in Love. As I walk down the road i see them all, hand in hand, holding on tight to the ones they never wanna let go of. Natural ones & Un-Natural ones ( Btw Where are Half of the Un-Natural ones these Days?). They are all becoming bold. Not afraid to show public affection. Both Types. Hah, I used to hate public affection, pushing it everytime it came my way. Too scared. Embarrassed maybe. But now, Remorse. Oh wells. *snickers*
Guys... .. . They are Funny creatures. U never know what they want & why they would have changed. There are those who live for their so-called Bros & then there's the other type that totally confuses up his live with other stuff (Good or Bad)! When he gets too much, he starts thinkin he's all that & totally just screws a R'ship cos he thinks that since he found a Goldfish he will be able to catch fishes just like that & in the end, he ends up with Guppies. What the Heck! Guys are Guys.
With Experience comes Expectations
Ahhh Loverr...
I'm guessing you're
the only one
who understands
at least
half of what
i meant in this post. =]
I miss U btw Woman!
&I'm still waiting for the one who would kiss me in the rain.
..........You will Miss me When I'm Gone..........
I'm almost done w Season 2 of The L Word. 
